Sometimes i feel like no one understands me, not even myself. It's a real depressing feeling. When even YOU don't know how you feel. I don't know whose felt or been through this. And i can't find anyone who has so far. All my friends think im this "amazing", "cool" person. Who can't do anything wrong. Even when i explain how im a terrible person they deny it completely. I don't get it, almost no one can tell me what they really think of me, because no one has the guts. Now, i don't just ask random people, theyre my supposed "close friends" and they can't even do me the favor of being HONEST, something you should always be, correct? I don't get it.

Well that's all for now.

~Robbie<3

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Seeing how my last comment on my blog was offensive, i've come to realize certain people are just NOT MATURE enough to read someones true feeling without being an a***** about it. SO, basically, i submit, If you can not grow up, act your rightful age you have grown to attain, please do not read my blogs and post such remarks. JOKING OR NOT, YOU ARE NOT FUNNY. You just dont kid about that. This is to everyone now, if you can NOT read someones blog without posting sarcastic or crued remarks. Please DONT read them. You only make the writer feel even MORE vulnerable when they do. And you don't have to like what i just wrote, you can think its just me, because it probably IS JUST ME, ON THIS SITE. But you still have to respect peoples emotions and well-being. Its the propper thing to do. And eventually, you'll realize that as i have.

~Robbie<3 

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Like, happier then i've ever been in my life. You don't know how this person makes me feel. even if i explained every emotion. every feeling i get. It wouldnt be half of how good i feel. I've never had someone mean so much to me, or ever get this close to me. Trust is a two way street. The path that starts off rugged. Or the path that dead ends. Point being, trust and love, you can't just get. You have to climb, and force yourself past the hard times, and just hope that person will help you when you are in need. And if not, Then you chose the path that ends just short of truely trusting someone. GOD. I'm so happy its scary. Im smiling for a change, and im actually TALKING to my parents..and well. thats something i thought i would never do again.

Welll thats ittt. Tired of typing lmao.

:D <3

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like seriously, my god, i hate myself. I wish that i would just die because of it. And right now, im like having a mental breakdown because of it. and i just want to cry, but i cant. and i don't know..god damn..kill me.

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I watch the new batman movie. it was pretty good. i was just distracted so i couldnt really get into it. like, somehow i made this girl give up on dating for ever. i REALLY don't know how or why, but i've screwed up, YET AGAIN. yay fcking me. i don't know what to do with myself. its like. half of me is telling me to give up, and that i can't live without her, but the other half is saying, move on theres others out there, when i know theres no girl out there like her, shes amazing. the most original, down to earth, cutest in everyway, smart, funny, just..stunning..and..theres no one out there like her..i can't believe how i screwed this up..i told her i loved her so many times, i told her i'd always be there..i told her how i'd catch her when she fell. and now it seems like i let her go..sometimes i feel like everyones against me. while the same time, on my side. the world is a tug of war of life and death, a constant stail mate till one side pulls too hard, and the balance is broken. im the ever lasting flag between this rope. there is no real hope of clinging to one side of the rope forever when the other side will relentlessly pulls you, till you cave.

Well..sorry if that was a little..different. but i sometimes express myself in wierd ways, and when i'm upset i use medaphors and philosophy to represent life as i see it.

If you read that, then i truely thank you, with all my heart<3

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so basically. its like 2:30am. i can't sleep AS USUAL. buts its all good. because well, i pretty much say so :]. ERR, not much to do. kylie made me join this stupid private server x-x. god. the things i do for other people. lmfao<3. UHM, life is rather dull lately. My friends all pretty much hate me except for like my current bestfriend Julie, who is like, freaking amazing. my god. anyway haha, im pretty much rambling on and on like an idiot. but who doesn't time to time? I lost my remote to the TV like, a week ago, WTF? lol. still can't find it, which i need to play VIDEOO GAMEEZZZ. yeah yeah im lame. and proud :D.<3. uhhh lets seee. My dad is like seriously annoying, because like, he still won't answer me on the whole guitar thing, which, i mean, why would i buy THE SEXIEST flying V electric guitar IN THE WORLD. then just stop playing? WTF. AND, i really hate when girls want me to play my guitar for them on the phone, like wth. Its not that i don't like themm, i just don't want to play. i called to talk, not play my guitar. ERR. so now im just whining. so i'm gonna go try to catch some Z's.

Night Everyone<3

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best idea i've ever hadd. :]

NO drama, NO girls, just sleeeppp :]

So i'm in a pretty good moooddd. I'm kind of grounded tho. i'm like not allowed to use my phonee. wtff? so gay. i'm like not even allowed to be on the computer, i'm sneaking on as it is. but theyre all asleep ;D. idiots. All i've got is my mp3 player i hid in my room. and i hope they don't take that, i'll..die. without music i'm nothing x-x. OH and my dad won't get me a new guitar WTF.

This is one of the guitars i wanted: "The Angel Of Deth"

its hella sexy. i've been playing for about 2 years now and my dad says "YOU NEED TO PLAY IT MORE" i'm likee wtff. 2 years isnt a long enough commitment? besides i asked for this guitar NEXT year for my birthday. so i'm likee dude, its not like i said "I WANT THIS NOW HOE!" blehk. i hate dads.

If you read all that, then youre cool. <3 :D

and i know you liked the guitar, idc if you deny it :]

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So, basically, a lot of the girls i like end up causing more trouble to me then theyre worth. Everything i do, is well, wrong? And a lot of them are whores who can't stick to one guy to save theyre lives. I don't really know what to do anymore except talk to the FEW girls who don't frustrate me. And try to hang out with more of my guy friends..which are like..two people..owell. I've slept like ALL day. and i'm STILL tired. i wish i could sleep at night. and not during the day. Besides the drama, the frustrating situations, watching cartoons and sleeping all day was fun :].

As always, if you read that (calto), you have no life. :]

<33

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SO, my like bestfriend finally came back :] i missed her LIKE CRAZY. but its all good now. and i'm happyyy :]. surrpising i know! O: still some drama. people ARE STILL ignoring me. but hey, its to be expected when ALL of your friends turn on you. WTF ehh. atleast i have someone who can make me forget all about the crappy things that have been happening x-x. It still bums me out that im a supposed "Bad Friend" i mean, wtf did i do to deserve THAT? ehhh. i've also realized ALL i EVER do is COMPLAIN. andd well, BITE ME AND GET OVER IT. :]

Thank joo if you read all that garbage O:

<33

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